We are already two and a half weeks into this New Year and I’d like to share with you an update since I have written one of my latest blog posts “2013 New Year – Journey Inward“. If you haven’t already read it, I invite you to start there so you will understand better what I am about to share with you here.
2013 somehow seemed to be the kind of year that I was wishing for in some way, to be able to slow my pace and have it be a quieter year. Certainly it was a year where I thought it could free me so I could get quieter and learn to do less. There was no doubt that I’d be in for some challenges since those are the exact things – being still and doing less – that are so difficult for me. So here I am two and half weeks later and already feeling the effects big time of the energy of my #7-year in numerology. I’m getting the meaning of it - LOUD and CLEAR!
This past week I have done a lot of soul-searching and writing. Everyday seemed to unfold more clearly for me. I no sooner thought that I had written what was going to be a blog post about it that something else was being revealed. I have had several people in my life this week help me in ways that they don’t even realize, and I am so grateful to them for that. So here I am to share with you about these first few weeks of my new year.
I find myself barely able do any of the things I was in the midst of doing. It feels like just about everything has come to a complete halt for me. That’s probably a good thing because I felt like I was speeding so fast on the highway of my life so much so that I wasn’t able to see the exits anymore, let alone the places where I could stop and rest. Sure I was extremely proud of all of my accomplishments in the past few years but also knew that I couldn’t keep doing so much and pushing myself beyond what was humanly possible for me to do. Yet I felt stuck in that vicious cycle. Even last week I began a 4-week online class that is part of the one-year membership program that I’m in, even when I was feeling like I was and should have known better. I was thinking that it would be great for me to learn how to create online eClasses which I hope to do one day. What I found was that I didn’t get very far until I stalled, my intentions were good but my body wasn’t allowing me to do much of it. At first I thought that the fear monsters were out and that I had to work through my fears but then it became clear that now is not the time for me to do this class as much as my head wants to do it. I’m getting the message from the universe that it’s not the time for me to be doing so much. I knew that already, but I thought that maybe I could somehow test my numerology number this year and sneak in a few things. Ah! I was wrong!
I am finding it all disappearing before my eyes anyway so what choice do I have? The more I attempt to grasp on to, the more everything slips out of my reach. Like trying to grab water with my bare hands. I’m not able to hold on to any of it. The more I try the further away from me it gets. I sense that I have to let go of e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g now even though my head is still telling me ”but what about all the things you want to do this year? They are not going to get done if you don’t crack down. What about all the classes and programs you signed up for and you have to work on?‘ You can’t possibly let that go, it all cost you a lot of money… and so on” The little voices in my head had me spinning. But I have come to realize that all that can wait now. I have to make myself the priority, for what feels like the first time in my life. I’d like to invite you to come and listen to Sera Beaks’s message… the importance of embodying our true feminine soul. Be sure to go and listen to her video in that blog post. Her message speaks loudly to me.
I’m very serious about creating space in my life now. And that will help me reconnect quietly with my higher self better than I have been. I see that I will be more receptive to the intuitive part of me that will then be able to show me what my soul truly desires for me.
Since the beginning of this year (and even before) I was sensing myself to be like the sinking Titanic ship from the weight of everything I had taken on. In case you are wondering if I’m depressed, I am NOT! I actually feel pretty awesome most of the time. Exhausted, but awesome. The exhaustion comes from me going upstream, against the current for too long and I want to learn to go more with the flow of my life instead. I’m ready to live life with ease.
In 2013 as I go and explore that deeper inner journey, there’s no doubt for me that having chosen to work with numerology this year is indeed proving to be quite interesting to say the least. It’s a time for me to trust and to have patience. I will have to learn to be ok with not being as present in some places where I have been very busy and active and instead be content in the quieter place of solitude.
The words below I heard in Sera Beak’s video truly say what I am feeling…
This weekend I thought I’d try picking an oracle card from one of the many decks that I have. I wanted a message about what I was feeling about these changes. Out of the 52 cards in my deck I picked a card three times within a 24 hour period. Each time thinking I could receive a different card and message, no that was not meant to happen. Every single time the same card would appear for me. The last time it flew out of the deck and landed beside me. I understood!
Lady of the Lake was the oracle card from The Wisdom of the Avalon, a 52-Card deck by Colette Baron-Reid. The message that The Lady of the Lake had for me is about absolute truth, courage, self-respect and responsibility, having the highest respect for yourself and how you operate in the world around you. She tells you that where denial exists it gets swept away by a tidal wave of events. So it’s time for me to listen and see the signs. It’s not a time to second-guess or play games. The message is to take care when Lady of the Lake appears, for serious business is at stake. But if you learn to work with that truth then great success is yours. My plan is to go after success. With that said I have my work cut out for me, hopefully I can flow with ease in that direction!
I invite you to voyage with me on this journey and take a peek at your own life and where you may need to make changes or even learn to let go and surrender. Do you have too much going on in your life too? I would love to hear your thoughts on this or anything else you may be experiencing or have gone through in your life.