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MRI results and making changes... — suzanne-mcrae.com

MRI results and making changes…

Since my last blog post I have busy with several different things, mostly all having to do with improving my health and healing.

I met with a Naturopathic Energy Practitioner last week and had some energy work done. I was prescribed a handful of supplements and products to begin taking to help support my body in the healing process it will be going through.

On Tuesday, my husband and I met with the surgeon for the results of the MRI that I had on July 20th. A few days before this appointment, I was filled with so much anxiety. I can’t say that I’m enjoying the anxiety roller-coaster very much when it comes along and takes me for a free ride since this diagnosis. I have to say though that I’m so grateful that those days are far less than the good days that I have.

During the half hour drive to the hospital for the results, I did EFT (tapping) on the way there about how I felt the first time I met with her and received my diagnosis. I tapped on the fears and the news that I might hear that day. By the time we arrived at the hospital I felt calm and confident. A far cry from how I felt the first time I was there.

Her assistant showed us which room to wait in for the doctor. This time I got my husband to sit right beside me, as opposed to us just sitting in the chairs where they had them situated, in opposite corners. When the surgeon walked in she was smiling and seemed less stressed. I wondered if she’d sit down this time to talk to us? She didn’t. But I was ok with it this time. She went on to tell me that the results of the MRI did not show anything different from what we already knew. There were no other lesions, nothing at all showed abnormal other than the one area in the one breast. I was so thrilled. It didn’t change the diagnosis, but I was thrilled that there wasn’t more that needed to be dealt with.

She answered the many questions I had. I told her that I needed time to think this through that I wasn’t ready to do the surgery right away. She was fine with that and just said not to take forever to decide.

By the next morning they had left a message telling me when my pre-op and surgery dates were. I called back and declined for now. What I didn’t tell her is that I want a second opinion. I feel that she may be able to do the job well… but she is a new doctor with not that much experience only 4 years, and she performs only a dozen at most breast surgeries a year.

My sister knows someone who knows the medical system pretty good, that person had shared names of breast surgeons and when I called the one I wanted to go and see for a second opinion, he wasn’t taking new patients. He’s semi-retired and not doing many surgeries anymore. Then I called the Women’s Breast Health Centre in Ottawa and got a few more names, and there was only one that I wanted to call. When I did he’s away on vacation for another week and a half.

The following day I had an appointment at the Ottawa Integrative Cancer Clinic. I had my first appointment with an oncology Naturopath. It was a very good first visit. I came back with diet suggestions. I was surprised to find that the Naturopath wasn’t giving me as strict of a diet to follow as I wanted to do but I’m following my own instincts on some things and sticking to what feels right for me. We also talked about exercise and she recommended that I go their centre for sessions of yoga therapy. We talked about deep breathing exercises as well as journaling to help me unload what’s in my head. I came back with a few more products to help support my healing. Along with what the Naturopathic Energy Practitioner prescribed I feel like a nurse some days dispensing this to myself. I had to make up a schedule to help make it a bit easier. I won’t lie, it’s overwhelming but I also see how most of this is necessary for now.

I felt like I moved in at the Ottawa Integrative Cancer Clinic this week. The following evening, I attended a 3-hour workshop called Cancer Smart ABC’s. I almost filled up the room with my support team. My husband, daughter and my sister wanted to be there with me. 🙂 I’m so grateful for the ongoing support I get from each of them. It was a helpful evening in finding out more about their services, but also in learning some techniques to help with the anxiety when it hits me. Before we left the workshop, an elderly woman I had met a few weeks ago when I went to my very first information session at this clinic walked up to me with the name of an oncology surgeon that was highly recommended and apparently very good. I thanked her. After looking her up I definitely would love to be able to go and see her. So that is on my to-do list for Tuesday morning once their office re-opens.

Yesterday my daughter wanted to go back to the clinic with me. They had lunch hour yoga so off we went to Ottawa. It very worth the time to get there. It was the most relaxing hour I had in a while.

I’m also trying to figure out the food plan I want to follow. It has to be easy to follow so I don’t have to think about this at every single meal. My sister had given me some really good information in a binder about nutrition from when she studied as a nutritionist so this will no doubt help me too. I need to go tap into my sister’s passion for food and cooking to see if she can inspire me to do what I need to with greater ease. Right now I feel overwhelmed with this part.

I invite you to watch this short video below. Please share it with your family and friends. We all need to pay closer attention to our health, to the messages that our body sends us.

This oncology surgeon is the one I’m hoping to go and see for a second opinion. So don’t wait if you suspect something may be off with your breast health, seek medical attention. Don’t let fear run your show.

“A View on Women’s Health”

On the other hand it’s been over two and a half weeks since I spoke to government agency to get things moving for our son. In the immediate now, we need to be able to hire a one or two extra people who can stay with him when I need to get to my appointments. We also asked that they be able to find him a group/residential home so he can get some independence away from us and so we can regain some form of life as a couple. There’s no perfect time. But it’s time. So its been two and a half weeks, not a word from them. When I enquired I was told its being worked on behind the scenes but I have not heard anything more than that. I was feeling extremely frustrated. Patience is not always a strength of mine. This has been an incredibly difficult decision for both my husband and I to decide on behalf of our son. It’s been a tough first step to take. Each one of us is feeling this change coming, and it’s all happening at the same time as I’m going through this health crisis. Right now I’m feeling left in limbo for all that is needed for his care, and wondering how God will help us get there and how He will help me stay sane in the midst of everything else that’s happening.

I continue to be so incredibly grateful for all the positive thoughts and prayers that are sent my way and for that of my family. Thank you!!

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  1. Good for you for getting a second opinion and taking charge of your care. Finding the most experienced surgeon is an important step. Having the surgery done in a hospital that does many of the same or similar procedures is also important for a positive outcome.

    I’m so impressed with the way you’re handling this, Suzanne. You’re being proactive by approaching this from a mind/body/spirit perspective. Sounds like you’ve got a great support team you can rely on.

    My prayers are with you as you find your way through this. Keep your eye on the big picture and know/trust that everything is working out in the right order and time. Most of all, approach every day, every situation, with a sense of love. xoxo

  2. Hi Suzanne:

    I’ve been following your journey and wishing you much healing. Thanks for sharing this intimate journey with us. It sounds like you are well supported in so many ways. xoxo!
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  3. Hi Suzanne,

    Well, you certainly have a lot on your plate! Sounds like you have a wonderful support network. That is really good. I hope that things work out for you. Diet is definitely a key factor from everything that I’ve read! I know that you are strong and you can beat this.
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  4. Mary Levac says:

    Hi Suzanne

    Just read your blog, certainly a lot to absorb on your part. Continue to see each step with a positive attitude, and putting things in perspective. When this is all over, and on your way to good health again, you can use all your knowledge and excellent writing skills to publish a book that will help many other women. Sending prayers for you and your support network, keep strong,

  5. Such a journey for you, Suzanne! It seems you are right on top of looking yourself, especially with the second opinion you are searching for in these early stages of breast cancer. You are always in my prayers!

  6. Thanks for sharing the video and your words of wisdom. You are one strong, courageous, smart, caring, giving and loving woman. You never cease to amaze me. Amidst all that is ongoing in your life,you take time not only to to share your journey but to share your wisdom and courage with others. I’m so glad you have an appointment to see this wonderful oncology surgeon.

  7. Knowing that so much support from so many of you is out there, is helping make this part of my journey much smoother than if I was feeling alone. You certainly help make this load I’m carrying feel lighter in so many ways. Thanks everyone for your prayers and positive thoughts. I appreciate that many of you keep coming back again and again to follow my journey through life. <3


  1. […] A little over a week ago someone put a piece of paper in my hand that had the name of a breast cancer oncology surgeon, and she said to me, you might want to look her up. Her name, Dr. Angel Arnaout. I shared a video of her in my last blog post. […]

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