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Book: Dying to be me by Anita Moorjani… and my thoughts about healing! — suzanne-mcrae.com

Book: Dying to be me by Anita Moorjani… and my thoughts about healing!

Last month I read the book ‘Dying to be me by Anita Moorjani’. You may have heard of it or read it yourself. I had seen the title of the book come up often enough online. I was curious and knew that I had to read it. My sister had borrowed the book from her local library, after she finished reading it she went on to tell me how I would surely relate to many of Anita’s views and beliefs about healing. The book made it’s way to my home, and once I began reading it, I couldn’t put it down until I turned the last page.

Dying to be Me - Anita Moorjani

Anita writes an incredible story of her life, including her disease with stage 4 Lymphoma cancer, and how she went from being hours away from her death, to having a near-death experience to complete healing. Today she is alive and well and brings an important message to the world.

Over the years my own beliefs about disease such as cancer to autism and everything in between began to slowly change. I began to question and challenge my old ways of thinking, and began to see that there is a root cause behind every disease or ailment that exists probably.

What started me on that journey of wanting to discover the why’s behind the diagnosis was not cancer but instead, it was because our son had been diagnosed with autism. With time I began seeing that his diagnosis as simply a series of symptoms observed (behaviours, developmental delays etc.), in other words they were the medical system’s opinions, thoughts, and beliefs that he met certain criterias that qualified him for this diagnosis that came from their medical book description that neatly labelled him with autism. That diagnosis, the autism word held an incredible charge for me. Over time I began to want to let go. I wanted to change how I felt. I knew that it was hurting me and also limiting me when I thought of my son as the label he had been given. He was not autism, the label he had been given. He was our son. He was Kyle. That choice quickly began to make the path I was journeying on with him so much lighter. I was much happier and because of that, hope and faith began to be restored. I had somehow lost that along the way. All that time I had allowed the weight of the diagnosis to crush me, but now I was choosing to make a comeback even though I didn’t know how I was going to do it. This change opened a huge portal, a place for healing to begin.

There is so much that we are lied about when it comes to the state of our health. So much that we are kept in the dark about. There’s fear everywhere and that only leaves us feeling helpless and thinking that there’s nowhere that we can turn to for help. Making things look bigger and worse than what it really is, leaving us with little hope. We become so debilitated that we cannot hear our own inner wisdom that could help bring us to a place of making empowered choices, finding healing and greater peace in whatever situation we are in. Truth cannot be revealed when we are surrounded by fear. We must be willing to begin to let go of the grip that fear has on us before the truth begins to be revealed, restoring our faith in being able to heal at whatever level we are meant to heal.

As human beings we are complex, made up of not only our physical body, but also the emotional and mental bodies and so much more. Our body stores all of our thoughts, beliefs, and fears to name just name a few. So one can only imagine the toll that takes on us. Then there are emotions and traumas that can get trapped in our body causing disease also eventually. I often wonder how in the world are we supposed to decipher all the stuff that our body has held on to all its life? Are we meant to decipher any of it, or are we simply meant to accept our fate… end of discussion? I seem to find myself falling more into the category of being curious, questioning and needing to know what is behind a diagnosis… what it means… what I need to learn from it so I can heal it… or so I can learn that I need to accept it maybe.

From Anita’s near-death experience she teaches us what she learned that helped heal her quickly from terminal cancer… learning to live from a place of unconditional love – let go of the fears that have us caged – following our heart’s greatest desires in life – do what brings us the most joy – follow our bliss – tap into the guidance of our inner being, our infinite self at very core of our being – let go of guilt – trust – allow new experiences to teach us – look at our life path… all the threads in the tapestry, that have brought us to this point in our life – attempting to please others only deprives us of our true self.

In her message she talks about looking into a new paradigm of self, becoming the crystalline light of our own awareness, where nothing interferes with the flow, glory and amazing beauty. Allow ourselves to be enveloped into Oneness, the pure essence of every living being and creature but without all their aches, pains, dramas and egos. Anita experienced all of this and I would tend to believe that we can also.

“our purpose in life is to raise our consciousness and spiritually evolve through each cycle at birth and death to the point of enlightenment – Anita Moorjani”

Our only purpose in life is to be our true self, live our truth, and be the love that we are. Live life fearlessly and see divinity in everything. Be in that state of pure awareness.

My greatest wish is for anyone that might have received any diagnosis regardless if cancer, diabetes, high blood pressure, fibromyalgia, HIV, arthritis or any other illness or disease, that you find a way to be able to let go of the weight that comes with the words, the labels that you were told that identify how you are feeling. If you can let go of saying ‘I have cancer; or I have diabetes, or I have HIV’. You are not that label. You are still you. See this as a glitch, a little speed bump along your life journey. A little nudge that is trying to tell you something. Find a way to get to your inner wisdom, your inner guidance that little voice that you often hear speaking to you. Quiet your mind so you can hear it. It will guide you towards what you need. Give yourself permission to let go of the diagnosis label. Fake it if you have to. Then make yourself believe that you are getting better or that your situation is improving, and watch the miracles begin to unfold for you.

Life is like a prayer… it invites us on a sacred journey of self-discovery. It teaches us to weave the Sacred into our everyday life, through the words that we speak, the actions we take, the emotions that we feel and the thoughts that we think. We need to be brave and live life fearlessly.

I invite you to share Anita’s story with others. Feel free to share my blog post. What if there was a way to heal our lives and some of the diseases that have ravaged us as a society? What if some of the things she talks about could help bring us to that place of healing, of inner peace, or of enlightenment. I truly believe that so much is possible.

Last evening we attended a wake for one of my school friends, she passed away this week of cancer at age 55. We also recently found out that another classmate also has cancer and he has not been given long to live. This is leaving me in a place of questions once again. Will we ever be able to transcend cancer and other serious diseases or illnesses? Are we meant to? I question because at times I feel myself so frustrated with this. Will we ever be brave enough to go into unchartered territory and explore the possibilities of miraculous healing like Anita experienced? There’s no doubt some are here to experience cancer… others are here to experience living their life with autism… some will go through serious traumas… some will be here to learn how to accept and find peace with the outcome regardless… some are finding the lesson in their disease and moving through it to the other side with return to wellness… some are passing away it was their time to leave probably… others are curious and keep questioning their beliefs… while others are choosing to dive deeper into the sacred journey of self-discovery and finding just what they need, whatever that might be. Is one better than the other? The answer is no. It is what it is. It is probably exactly as it needs to be for each and everyone of us according to what we came here to learn and experience. The exact plan that God had for each of us. But it still leaves me questioning my beliefs more deeply and also the bigger picture called life and what I am meant to learn from it, because I sense my learning is still not completed on this topic.

I wrote this blog post about a week ago and I wondered why I had not posted it yet. Since finding out that my school friend had passed away and after going to her wake last evening it became clear why I had not posted my blog yet.

Rest in Peace dear friend… and thank you for helping me gain more clarity on a topic that can frustrate me as equally as it passions me at times. I believe that this is going to help me to understand about disease on a deeper level, while learning to accept and respect in more ways the journey each of us is on regardless of the outcome. This has been a lingering issue for me and you have helped bring a lot of clarity with your passing. Thank you for being on my path for part of your journey in life as we were young girls in school together. I will always treasure those years and your beautiful smile and the gentle caring soul that you were. I know that your shining Light will always continue to remain with us. May God Bless You Always!! xo

There are a lot of wonderful interviews you can find with Anita Moorjani on Youtube.

You can find Anita’s website and her Facebook Page. Her book Dying to be Me can be found on Amazon.

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  1. Hello Suzanne! First, sorry about your school-friend. Bless her on her journey. As for Anita, I think it was you who first put me on to her…I think. I’ve watched numerous videos of her story and found it wonderful. I think I will download her book now. Thanks for a lovely post.
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  2. I’ve watched several of Anita’s interviews. When we embrace our spiritual journey as a communion with unconditional love, it all makes sense. A friend of mine once told me, ‘I think we come here to learn how to love’. We do, don’t we? And the road to love becomes the path to the Light. ♥
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  3. What a beautiful, powerful post. My favorite part is: “Our only purpose in life is to be our true self, live our truth, and be the love that we are. Live life fearlessly and see divinity in everything.” I SO AGREE! Namaste, Suzanne.

  4. I totally get this…..I love where your heart is taking you
    as you process this out. I think the connection is stronger and more complex
    than we know, the whole mind-body-spirit thing.
    I really love your heart for healing.
    Cheering you on,
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  5. Anita Moorjani is an amazing woman. I took a 4 week series with her through Hay House. Most of us are not taught to love ourselves unconditionally, in fact it’s just the opposite. I’m so glad you wrote this post because as I’m typing this Anita’s words are coming back to me, a gentle reminder to continue along that path ALL day EVERY day. xo
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    • Love that you took Anita’s 4 week series through Hay House. I had seen that too and had a lot happening and thought one more thing, no. So glad to hear you did it and got so much out of her teachings. I want to go and watch many of her videos next. I resonate with her words, teachings and her truth. All the best to you on your path. xo

  6. Thanks, Suzanne, for doing such a great job of summarizing this book. It has such an important message for all of us – a message we need to be reminded of daily!
    I am so thankful we are on a similar spiritual path!

  7. Suzanne, Thanks for sharing this inspiring book and exploring those nagging questions about illness that are brought forth with the death of someone close to us. Miracles are possible but why are they accessible to some and not to others? Life is so complex. We all seem to be working through a complex mix of circumstances, symptoms, challenges, gifts, blessings, with LOTS of mystery thrown in. We’re all connected but life seems so individual sometimes that it’s difficult to untangle the threads around illness and death. I appreciate your willingness to venture into this wilderness.

    • Veautiful words of wisdom. Thank you. I appreciate being along side you on this journey and with the questions that we ask in order to gain greater clarity in life. Blessings! xo

  8. Suzanne, what a lovely post! I read Anita’s book last month as well… how funny. (Have you also read “Proof of Heaven” by Dr. Eben Alexander? Very similar and compelling story.) These two books are my first encounter with this subject and I most definitely believe their stories. Truth and fear are mutually exclusive. I also have wondered whether things are “meant” to happen… I suppose we can find meaning in anything if we want to. And that idea of energy as positive or negative is huge.

    Living from unconditional love, from that divine spark, and KNOWING that wisdom and intuitive love is inside us makes me feel so much more purpose and happiness. I believe their stories and experiences and thus I know there is so much more to life than what we see. I feel much less helpless just knowing that. I know God to be loving and kind, not judging and punishing. I know other people to be good or at least capable of good. I am less fearful and judging myself because of it.

    I used to wish I were on the U.N. global affairs or human rights committee. Now, rather than attempt to change a million things like injustices in the world and being worried and stressed by it all, I feel that living my own life with love for those I encounter and kindness toward others is actually making a huge difference. I can only do what my life leads me to do, you know? And if I trust that, I can’t go wrong. I love how this has helped you say goodbye to your dear friend. I really believe these souls are always with us.
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    • So glad to hear you read Anita’s book also Naomi. I have not heard of the book you mention. I will check it out. Living from a place of unconditional love is what I believe it’s all about also. One that we get to practice often. Thank you for your lovely comment. I appreciate you dropping in. xo 🙂

  9. Suzanne I am sorry about the loss of your friend. It is never easy letting go of those we love. I really can relate to your post. For most of my life I have been labeled “anorexic”. The label was carried for so many years that it is who I thought I was, it was my identity. I am so happy those years are behind me. The labels we place on people are destructive and limiting. We are SO much greater than any label! Love to you Suzanne! XO
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  10. Good to read your blog post Suzanne! It’s a remarkable story. If you’re interested to read my interview with Anita, you can find it here: http://www.supersouls.com/interview-with-anita-moorjani/
    With kindness,

  11. I agree with you that there’s a root cause behind the illness. I agree that emotion and trauma can cause disease. I do believe that we’re to decipher it. I believe it’s all for our learning, our healing. It’s our lesson(s) and it brings us to our purpose . . . which can be described as living our true self and our truth. I agree that our inner wisdom is vital in deciphering things.

    I also agree about us not being the label. Eckhart Tolle wrote about not being the label or the form in “A NewEarth.” He wrote about finding the true essence of the thing – – the real you or the real thing.

    I hope you don’t mind me sharing something I wrote in response to Echkart’s book. It’s long but I thought it fit here because it’s about the labels. Here it is:

    We Call it Bird

    We call it “bird.”
    But it’s essence. It’s life.
    It’s an expression or creation of Life.
    It’s life in a particular form.
    We call that form “bird.”

    With “bird” we associate things like wings, flight, chirping, flying into windows, stupid, dirty, feathers, beaks, poop, worms, trees, nests.

    This becomes its identity.

    Yet, the beingness or essence that is the “bird” is rarely known.
    Our connection with that essence is rarely experienced.
    So we don’t “see” it and love it and treasure it and be with it.

    It’s the same with our fellow human beings.

    We call it “human.”
    But it’s essence. It’s life.
    It’s an expression or creation of Life.
    It’s life in a particular form.
    We call that form “human.”

    More specifically, we may call that form “woman,” “wife,” “mother,” “friend,” “sister,” “Julie.” We may associate brown hair, pretty, calm, stubborn, the house down the street, Ukrainian, Canadian, Buddhist, cancer-survivor, teacher, narrow-minded, intelligent . . . or any other characteristic . . . with “Julie.”

    This becomes who “Julie” is.

    Yet, the beingness or essence that truly is “Julie” is rarely known. Our connection with that essence is rarely experienced. So we don’t “see” it or love it or treasure it or be with the “is-ness” that is “Julie.”

    We judge.
    We like or dislike.
    We associate or dismiss.
    We mistreat.
    We ignore.
    We go about our own business, unaware of “Julie’s” beingness . . . and unaware of our own.

    • striving . . . to earn, to learn, to be right, to get through the day, to achieve, to be seen, to escape, to find “more”
    • busy doing
    • constantly accumulating

    We’re rarely just being. Rarely just being with God/Source/Spirit, creation, others, ourselves. Rarely just being who we really are . . .

    . . . loving
    . . . at peace
    . . . in each moment
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    • Leanne I’m so delighted that you came by and shared with us about Eckhart Tolle’s views on the bird and then in comparison to being human. Well said, and so true that rarely are we just being who we really are. Blessings!

  12. Wow, Suzanne.

    What a powerful post this is. I had not heard of Anita Moorjani before so this is great. I love the way that you have determined to not let the labels be how you live with your son.

    My aunt had MS. The entire time that she had it (she died a few years ago), getting rid of the MS was all she did. It consumed her. I can’t say that I would not have done the same thing. I can’t say how I would react to such a diagnosis if it were me, but it seems that not accepting the label is a beautiful thing. The label loses its power over you when you do not embrace it.

    I am sorry about your friend. How amazing that you read this book at this time. How perfect. Kismet. You were able to receive the lessons and apply them to your life and make things better. Reading your blog is always such a treat.
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    • Amy, thank you for sharing about your aunt and her MS. I must admit that I was consumed with my son’s autism for about a 12-15 year span of time. I mean consumed trying to find everything that I could so I could fix it and make things easier and better. That didn’t work out so well for the most part and only exhausted me. Then I decided to change that approach and give myself permission to allow the label to not have such a tight grip on me and I must say it’s been so much better.

      Thanks for dropping by. If you get a chance take a peek at Anita’s book. 🙂

  13. Tracy McGinty says:

    I commented on your blog. Beautifully written a lovely communication to what Anita experienced. I have been spiritually awake a long time. It happened with a Brazilian man in late twenties early thirties in fact ruined next relation. But hey. 🙂 I just want to share I have an autistic nephew. The time I’ve spent with him I would not trade for all the tea in China. So enriching for my soul. And the time spent with my cousin who was just about to realize the light and all is exactly what Anita shares. My cousin and I through her upset, visited a gifted medium. Who shared. ….Peter her autistic son actually chose the role of an autistic person in this life this time around. Peter so very special. Susanne who passed over my closest friend her daughter now in NYC very very spiritual person I just thank God above he helped us all by sharing Anita’s experience as her circumstances exactly the same as Susanne. My cousin works for the charity. She is a fabulous person and mother. Friend me should you wish to become friends with her. Thank you again for your blog. So very beautifully written. Kind regards. Tracy.

  14. Barbara Van Dusen says:

    Thank you for sharing your most intimate thoughts and for putting them out there without fear of rejection or ill thoughts. You are a spark of the Divine. I embrace the thought that we are spiritual beings having a physical experience. Listening to the inner Calm and Truth helps us see beyond what doctors predict and diagnose. I’ve proved them wrong. Anyone can. Not that proving them wrong was my goal. My goal is to live a disease free live, full of happiness and joy. Never lose faith in your words. The only mistake we make, in my opinion is making it again. Once you gain that spiritual aha it becomes part of your energy, it is always there for you to tap into whether you see it or not, it is there. Thank you again.

    • Barbara I thoroughly enjoyed reading your lovely comments. Beautiful. I’m so glad that you dropped by. I love your shining truth and how you are making it happen in your life and walking forward with it on your journey. Blessings!

  15. Thank you so much for sharing yourself with us. When my daughter was born with Sickle Cell Disease, I would not receive the label, which is exactly what I felt it was from the moment I heard it, a label, not an illness of disease. Because I have always felt this way, I believe, is the reason she has lived her life in a way that appears to be “main stream” per se. She has had lots of exposure and when people find out she has this label they say, I had no idea she had SSD. And my reply is, what do you expect me to say, hey this is my daughter and she has SSD. No, this is my daughter, period. Life has been good!

    • Hi Queen, thank you for leaving us with a beautiful sharing of your own story with your daughter and Sickle Cell Disease and how you did not accept the label she was given. I think this is awesome that you were able to see it as only that a label, and right from the start. I’m so happy to hear how good your life has been! Blessings to both of you. xo

  16. Sally Dubel says:

    Hey Suzanne! You may be interested in what Nouk Sanchez, Undoing-the-ego.org, is teaching. Much Love

  17. Matt Jackson says:

    Hi Suzanne,

    Thanks so much for the lovely post. I have also read Anita’s book and really enjoyed it. Many of the things in it really jive with my own worldview, and there is no question she is an exceptional person with a very important message to share.

    I am sorry to hear about your friend’s recent passing, and about your second friend who has also been diagnosed with a terminal illness. I am not sure if you are open to suggestions, but one book you may wish to consider reading is Science & Health by Mary Baker Eddy. Over the years I have experienced some pretty remarkable healings just by studying this book–including a deformed knuckle-bone on my writing thumb that I’d lived with for several years. I suppose I had what one would call a “mystical” experience when I experienced an instantaneous healing of this condition, and the thumb reverted to its original perfect form, like it was before the ski accident that had deformed it. Really, it was like I had been touched by the light of Divine Love … or another way of saying it: for the briefest of moments I was able to align my thoughts with God’s thoughts, the infinitely loving being who forever sees every one of his/her creations as perfect, complete and 100% healthy.

    If you feel your second friend is open to spiritual healing, Mrs. Eddy’s religion (Christian Science) features practitioners (spiritual healers) who have devoted their lives to the healing ministry. You will find an online listing of practitioners here:


    Please understand that this is not a sales pitch in any way, shape or form. Christian Science is not geared that way. Some have been healed, been thankful, and not necessarily joined the church. Really the goal of every one who studies and attempts to demonstrate these spiritual truths is to bring healing to the world.

    If you feel your friend would like to know more, I would be happy to suggest a specific practitioner who my family has had good success with. Then, if he wishes, he can call and talk to them under no obligation and decide if it’s the kind of thing that interests him.

    Most of all, I want to say again how much I appreciate your thoughtful review of Anita’s book and agree with you 100% that practicing unconditional love towards everyone we meet is the most important thing we can do.

  18. Hi Matt, thanks for visiting my blog post. I appreciated hearing your thoughts about healing. Thank you for the recommended reading and about the healing ministry. Blessings!

  19. Sounds like a great book. I love how you shared bits of your story along with the book. So true about how we are more than just a physical body!
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  20. Suzanne, thank you for writing such a powerful, beautiful post. I was meant to read this today and I thank you for it. I will not be defined by my disease.
    Sorry for the loss of your friend.

  21. Caitlynne Grace says:

    Dear Suzanne,
    Your phrase in the blog post above, Weave the sacred into each day, is a timely reminder of the daily efforts we should make to disengage ourselves from busyness. All too often, I get so engrossed in work, that everything else takes a backseat. I’m Catholic, and 2 weeks’ back, I felt an inner tug to read the Psalms for this Lent season. I did it the first week, and in the second, had no time for it at all. Or rather, did not make time for it. Your gentle reminder, Weave the sacred into each day, is that tiny bell tinkle, calling me back to the Psalms.
    Just wanted to say Thank You.

    God bless you.

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