There’s something to be said about receiving a totally unexpected surprise, and Flora Bowley did just that today for me and she has no idea just how much that cheered me up and made my day.
Flora is the teacher of the eCourse Bloom True Intuitive Painting that I was a part of lately. Today Flora sent out her March newsletter and before I even had a chance to read it she had written on Facebook Just linked to your blog in my newsletter today.
What a delightful surprise.
I managed to paint 4 out of the 5 week class with Flora. The unfinished paintings I have worked on have been waiting for me to return to the easel now for two weeks.
This period of standstill with my painting has been about different things. For one I have worked on other things that were necessary on the home front mostly having to do with my son’s special needs. I have been taking care of the business aspect of things for him, like hiring another person on our team to help him on his journey. There’s been the funding aspect that we receive for him for which I am so grateful but at times it demands my attention and time. This year I feel like I have little control in what I do and mostly feel like I have been stopped dead in my tracks a lot of days. That topped with healing reactions from my Heilkunst treatments and for my son has me wishing to get away and sit on a mountain top alone. My numerologist suggested that anyone who is living in a numerology 7-personal year, that being alone on a mountain top this year would be ideal… now I know what she meant. And that is how this year is evolving so far for me. It feels like the tide has gone out with everything that I was doing and nothing is returning. Nothing is flowing easily. I am finding myself dropping away from so much that I was doing last year just to reconnect and find my centre again. I wrote about it recently here.
Flora’s eCourse has helped me do that in a big way to go back within. All that I need to do now is continue to take more steps towards what I am wishing to attract more of into my life regardless of the circumstances that seem to be my reality. Nothing is ever what it seems to be. I love so much how Flora’s class taught me so much about how to reconnect to my true self. Her eCourse was so much more than just about painting, yet for me painting was such a big part of that exploration space and connection that I seemed to be needing, a place that allowed me to play and have fun. What I wish most of all is to create peace and freedom with everything I do in my life. I believe that painting will be a big part of that process for me. Even though I have an adult son who has special needs and still needs me, I also know that somehow all of what I want for myself and for him can become a reality… one step at a time as long as I continue to do the things that bring me the greatest joy, then the sky will be the limit for unlimited growth and possibilities both of us.
I have two small paintings accomplished since taking Flora’s class. They are not the huge canvases that I had started. With the three huge canvases I had started I was feeling terrified when it came time to begin thinking of completing them. And that is where I stopped painting to tend to other things at home. Did I attract all those other things in my life at this time to avoid going to my canvases to attempt to complete one of them? Possibly. I’d even have a tendency to say that it’s even a probability that I created those distractions and now it’s time to go back to the easel.
I was thrilled to see that my blog post was featured in Flora’s newsletter. As I read her newsletter the little demon voices inside of me tried to come up and tell me that I was undeserving because I had not painted in a few weeks or even completed one big canvas yet. In that moment I decided to silence their voices and instead graciously accept this beautiful gift that I received instead.
Thank you Flora for the recognition you have given me about my blog post. It is an honour to have it shared in your newsletter. I wish to thank you for this amazing Bloom True eCourse you have created that is changing my life in so many ways. xo