This morning I thought I’d spend a few minutes on Pinterest. I was going there to do something mindless. That didn’t last more than a few seconds when this quote jumped out at me and that was the end of it.
That confirmed exactly what I have felt. It’s time that I listen to my own voice. It’s time that I listen to my own soul. And I am one of those people who has listened to the noise of the world and ignored my own inner voice. It is time that I STOP!
Since entering this new year the pace of my life feels so different from last year. This #7 numerology personal year means business. And in the sense of business I mean, I must take a lot of time for ME and me alone tending to my own needs, time to disconnect from the busy-ness of the world and reconnect with myself. Nothing more. Nothing less. Everything else is a distraction right now. From my personal life to the online world and everything in between – there’s too much noise happening.
Too much noise, too much busy-ness, to much of everything yet I have been unable to disconnect enough. I’m not there yet. I am having a really hard time letting go more of being in the online world, afraid that I’ll miss something. But also that is what I do to avoid spending quiet contemplative time by myself. Yet every time I do something I know I shouldn’t be doing, I feel myself being dragged down more. So wish me luck. I need to go there more often and learn to be ok with letting go and be ok with everything.
The only things that have fuelled me this year have been when I take many hours a day to do the things that are just for me. It’s that quiet time alone with a lot of quiet space that is fuelling me.
Attempting to live life this way, in the midst of three other people living in the same household as me who have numerology personal year numbers of five, four and one can feel challenging. For them they are all in the movement mode with a lot happening, a lot of action while for me things are almost stopped. I’m at the opposite end of the scale.
It feels like there is hardly any movement for me right now. And where I sense that I am trying to move with anything at all it just comes to a complete halt almost every time. Even though my numerology year did say that things would be moving slowly, I need to focus on the part that said, significant things can still happen even at the slow pace. It is not a year for doing and boy do I feel that in every part of me. I’m a doing person, so slowing down does not come naturally.
On my nightstand I have the book by Eckhart Tolle Stillness Speaks. As I look at each chapter I am reminded that I need to read this book… Silence & Stillness – Beyond the Thinking Mind – The Egoic Self – The Now – Who You Truly Are – Acceptance & Surrender – Nature – Relationships – Death & The Eternal – Suffering & the End of Suffering. There will be a few lessons in there for me I am sure.
I have no choice now but to give myself full permission to disconnect from everything, and bring my focus back on what truly aligns me with what my soul wants and what my inner voice is trying to tell me. I need to connect with those parts of me right now and I can’t do that if I stay in the busy-ness out there as much as I have. I will not be gone far, but I also will not be as present for a little while, as I go and connect with those parts of me that need my attention.