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Bloom True eCourse: The evolution of one painting — suzanne-mcrae.com

Bloom True eCourse: The evolution of one painting

It’s hard to believe that I am already finishing up week 3 of the 5-week Bloom True Intuitive Painting eCourse, yet it feels like I have just begun.

When I posted a week ago here, I was having so much fun. In that blog post I shared the different layers from several different paintings that I was working on.

Today I’ll be sharing only one of my paintings, showing each layer that I have painted so far. This one measures 24″x30″. I call it painting #3, which otherwise remains unnamed for the time being. It is still a work in progress and it may be until I complete this course. You will see just how much my painting has changed during the course of just 3 short weeks. There has been many opportunities to explore the different colours, techniques and creating marks on my canvas. Learning to connect intuitively and allowing that to guide me is what it’s all about.

This is the first layer of this intuitive painting…

1st layer

each layer transforming the painting into something else…

Layer 2

It didn’t take long for it to start looking messy by layer #3…

Layer 3

on the layer below I was adding white or black to my colours to give it different shades and it looks like I used mostly my fingers to paint this one…

Layer 4

A week ago we were taught to add value contract using black and white on our paintings. That next step felt extremely uncomfortable to me. I didn’t want to do it… so I procrastinated for a few days. Then very reluctantly and feeling frustrated I pushed myself to do it. I used a foam brush like our teacher was using in her video. While still feeling frustrated and without thinking about what  I was doing I added the white and black and then stepped back to look at what I had painted. My critical self immediate came out and the judging began. There was too much darkness for my liking. (I also feel that I missed taking a photo between this picture below the one above to show you) Out of the 3 big canvases that I am working on all 3 ended up looking like this one. Luckily at about the same time our teacher told us that our work will go through awkward stages. Well I was right on target and felt so frustrated with the process.

These next few layers of my painting felt very awkward and uncomfortable for me. I can’t remember how or when I did it but I also created lots of what I call mud colours, combining colours that shouldn’t go together unless well… you want mud…

Layer 5

Then it was time to add some translucent colours, and that didn’t improve very much the look of what I had on my canvas. I got stuck in my head at this point thinking there’s no way I will ever learn to paint. I didn’t want to trust in the process at this point, and it felt painful…

Layer 6

making random marks on my canvas and I’m still not happy with it. It even crossed my mind to gesso the painting and start over, but I was encouraged not to do that and instead to keep transforming it…Layer 7

I didn’t want to face painting, yet I didn’t want to fall behind my course, so my way of dealing with it (or not dealing with it), I decided to give myself permission one day to go and watch a movie instead of painting. I rarely ever sit down to watch a movie so I knew that I was up to something and clearly I was avoiding doing the work I was meant to. I tried to tell myself that I wanted to wait for inspiration to come knocking at my door. Then just as I was going to go watch the movie, something stopped me dead in my tracks and turned me around on the spot towards my living room where I do my painting. Without thinking I just knew that I was meant to be painting that day. I spent the next hour or so on four of my paintings creating very different looks without even trying. The paint was flowing. I was in the moment felt guided and trusted that the marks I was making on my canvas was perfect for me.

When I stepped back and took a look, it reminded me of a summer garden.

Layer 8

On this latest layer I added some imagery. With my iPad in one hand and a paint brush in the other I was looking on Pinterest for random images or symbol that caught my attention. I then made some quick outlines of those in my painting. I really like this painting without knowing what I will be guided to do next on it. It’s not done yet. I have no clue if it will end up looking anything like this or if it will get totally transformed as the next few weeks evolve.

Layer 9

With only a few weeks left in our course we are now ready to fully allow ourselves to be guided to what techniques to use on each of our layers. We have learned several different ways of doing them and now it’s time to allow intuition to guide us completely.

Next week’s theme in our e-course Bloom True is about being brave. I’m thinking that I may still be pushed out of my comfort zone a few more times as I continue to explore with painting and diving maybe a bit deeper into my soul as I allow what’s inside of me to be transformed in more ways than one. This class is fitting in perfectly with what I had set out to do this year.

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  1. Hi Suzanne! I loved reading about your process. I felt like I was there feeling it all with you. I also know exactly what you mean about awkward stages and thinking you really don’t know what you are doing, it’s such a mess, no way of fixing, etc. I think all of us think this way, but I’ve also learned, if you keep at it, even though your little voice is sooo critical, it usually turns out a lot better than you imagined. I can’t wait to see the end result! xoxo
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  2. Hi Suzanne! I loved reading and sinking into this post! I could feel your left brain taking over…but then the wise right brain kept popping in. Awesome job persevering. I think you’ve got something here!
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  3. Sherri Shokler says:

    Thanks for sharing both processes – what happened on the canvas and what was happening with you. the evolution is remarkable and gives me hope. I’ve been stuck all week – not done a bit of painting. I must face the canvases today. Hope I can be as brave and trusting as you’ve been. The results are clearly worth it.

    • Hi Sherri, it’s wonderful meeting you in Flora’s class. I hope that you were able to paint this week and let yourself go beyond those stuck feelings. It’s easier to bust through those feelings than to remain there. Cheering for you! 😉

  4. What you are doing is brave. Keep it up. Remember that this e-course may not have all the answers you need. Let the artist in you work and don’t worry as much about the artisan. Or ignore my advice. Go with your gut. That’s how I decide. Enjoyed the post a lot. I especially loved layer one.
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  5. It’s all about the process, Suzanne, and letting go of expectations of the finished piece. Realize that you’re learning along the way and that not everything you do is precious. I cannot begin to tell you how many paintings took me to where they needed to take me when I let go of my ego…and how many painting’s I’ve painted over because they served their purpose and it was time to move on.
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    • Susan, you have no idea how much I sense your presence and your words of wisdom when I paint. I feel supported in so many ways by you. Thank you for helping me to learn and to allow my inner creativity to flow out onto canvas. It means the world to me knowing that you are there with your encouraging words always. xo

  6. Suzanne, ooh, the discomfort, the joy, the beauty, sounds a lot like life! Fun to follow along with all the visuals. 🙂 You go, girl!
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  7. I really enjoyed this post Suzanne – hearing about your process AND seeing the painting as it is developing over the various stages. And what great things you’re learning – not only painting but about your process and thinking patterns as well. Nice job!
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  8. So impressed with your commitment and the energy you’re putting into your paintings! It’s such a joy to witness the unfolding of your creativity through paint 🙂 Looks like Flora’s process and the accompanying wisdom is a good fit. Learning to let go of the outcome is such a lifelong process – for EVERY part of our life’s journey, isn’t it ?!

    • Hi Malini, I love that you truly understand the lifelong process involved with learning to let go. I can’t find a better way than to work through it with creating art. Thank you for visiting. xo

  9. Hi Suzanne! Love your website! So nice to meet you in Flora’s Class. Happy painting:-)))
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  10. Thanks for sharing this, Suzanne. I loved what Susan said about it being about the process and not the results. I love that idea of glancing through Pinterest for inspiration. I could be wrong, but it always seems that the purpose of these sorts of paintings is not to create a piece of art that you look at and admire as much as it is about allowing that intuitive nature to guide your work and the process of practicing that. I also loved your discipline in sticking with it, even when it was tough to do. Your writing always carries us with you and is so good that way.

    • It’s lovely having you here Amy. Glad that you enjoyed reading my post. You are so right, ‘allowing the intuitive nature to guide our work and the process of practicing that’. So true. xo

  11. Suzanne – thank you – Thank you for sharing your personal process with this new expereince. As a coach, I get the chance to be witness to this sort of discovery, excitement, energy, stagnation, doubt and discomfort – as people step into the unknown and undiscovered (uncovered?) What I love is that your teacher is reminding you to trust the process, and you are doing just that.
    this is a beautiful story to tell, and I look forward to hearing how this unfolds for you. Trust the process.
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    • Hi Nea, thanks for dropping in. It’s lovely having you here. I love hearing that you are a coach and that you help clients achieve changes in their lives. I look forward getting to know you better. I just visited your site briefly. I will be sure to go back. 🙂

  12. Hi Suzanne, thanks for stopping by Black Street. I’m so glad you also posted the different stages/layers of your painting. It’s an amazing course. Though I do find it difficult at times because it’s the complete opposite of how I normally practice my creativity I am (mostly) loving the process and finding it quite addictive. See you back in class 😉
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    • Hi Susan, your artwork in Flora’s class is very lovely. I’m happy to see that you are having fun even though you may be finding it complete opposite to how you normally practice your creativity. When I get going with my painting I find it kind of addictive myself at times. I loved having you drop by. 🙂

  13. Looks like you are really enjoying your course! I’m so happy for you and love how these images are transforming and being a part of your process is truly a gift. Thank you for sharing all of you 🙂
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    • The painting class is helping me be in that place I wanted this year of exploring my inner self. It seems to fit perfectly. The only part I don’t like are the ones that bring discomfort… but that can also be perfect opportunities for growth and change. So I’m trying to embrace all of it. Thanks for dropping by. xo

  14. Flow with the process and your inner self will just shine and shine, and we see it! 🙂
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  15. I LOVE watching the progress! So fantastic!
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  16. It is so nice to see all your layers and it feels so good knowing that if we dont like it we add another layer 🙂 I so much wait to see your paintings when you feel finished 🙂
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