Lately the word Soul seems to be popping up often no matter what I am reading or listening to. Life has a way of showing us exactly what it is that we need. And that brings me to wanting to explore what my Soul is trying to tell me.
I sense that there may be a little excavating that will need to happen to get me there. It’s time that I get serious and up to speed with my Soul.
I know that I’m not just this physical body that I inhabit. The greatest part of who I am cannot be seen. It is what I call my Soul, and now it wants me to wake me up even more so I can fully live my life as it was intended.
I have been very good at resisting and procrastinating about living my life in a more conscious and fully awakened way. I know that I have avoided meeting head-on with my Soul. You could probably say terrified actually, but of what? I don’t even know. I felt like I was escaping and even turning a blind-eye to my Soul even being there. I pretended that I didn’t know why I was feeling a certain way, when I pretty much knew what I was ignoring. It was way easier playing the role of a victim than to have the courage to admit to myself what was really going on.
Why is it on our journey that we sometimes lose our way or stop listening to that voice that is within us? Maybe we are not lost after all and maybe that voice has simply gotten blurred out by all the noise in our lives. Are we afraid of fully embodying the true essence of our Soul? Are we afraid of living our life to the fullest? Why do we sometimes or always choose to live our life half-asleep instead of fully awake? Why do we sometimes feel more awake than other times?
I feel that I have let my Soul down in some ways. I feel that I have not being living my life to the fullest. Life is such a beautiful gift. Why does it take us so long to fully recognize that?
I believe that this can change once a person is willing to do the work that is needed. I feel ready to go there and do just that, so that one day I may be able to re-phrase that sentence to “I have been responsible and grateful for the life I was given. I have embraced and lived my life to the fullest”.
I don’t quite know what it all means to live life to the fullest but I am open to finding out. I also don’t quite know how one gets in touch with one’s Soul. It seems like I will be finding out one step at a time.
I see my Soul as an inner light, my Higher Self that is filled with wisdom that is waiting to guide me every step of the way on my journey. There’s no doubt that it has helped me get this far in life, and now I am open to seeing where it takes me on this next part of my journey as I commit more fully to living the life that I was given.
I have been blessed with more than I could ever wish for in my life. But, it feels like something is missing. That something that is missing is not in the form of accumulating more from the material world, but instead what is missing is that deeper inner connection to my Soul. It feels like a deep sadness buried inside of me, an emptiness. I recognize that it comes from not being fully connected to my Soul. It’s not something that anyone else can give me, but it is something that I must go and explore on my own. Is it unrealistic to think that I can have this connection? I don’t believe that it’s unrealistic. I just need to be courageous, willing and able to go take a peek and see what I can find in the process. I may just be pleasantly surprised once I take that first step.
A few weeks into the new year I wrote how the energy of 2013 was already shifting so many things for me, and already I was sensing that I wanted that deeper connection with my soul. I must admit that the numerology year 7 that I’m in is proving to be extremely accurate so far. I could not have asked to have been given a more perfect year to bring me to what I am ready to go explore.
I’d love to hear your thoughts on this topic of… Soul and what it means to you!