Already 22 years ago today you came into our family and the world.
I never expected what would lie ahead for us when you were born… the journey you would bring me on was to be kept a surprise for a little while longer.
Over the years you took me places I had never been or ever imagined being taken to… into systems and mazes I had never dealt with in ways you would show me how to navigate… you showed me the many hats I would be wearing (and here I didn’t think I was a hat person)… the needle in the haystack I would try to find so I could help you make your life easier (I loved sewing and needlework so I was sure I would find that needle one day)… the hundreds of unconventional things I would be learning and awakening to (which are the many gifts I am blessed with today)… the sleepless nights… and the millions of tears I shed of joy, sadness and so much uncertainty… not counting the hundreds of emotions that flowed through me in the process that I could not control.
I’ve done it all without knowing that it would help me uncover who the true you really was deep within… I knew that you were not the diagnosis, the label you were given… but I didn’t know how to get there… I just knew that there a gem in you waiting to be uncovered and unwrapped a little at a time so it could be revealed to me in the fashion it needed to be.
Today as you turn 22 years old… I’m in a much better place of accepting what is… and the many gifts you have brought for me I see much more clearly… I am forever grateful for the life you have chosen to be born into, that has helped me to find who I truly am as well.
I see your shining light everywhere you go… you are brilliant and so intelligent, yet communicating with words doesn’t come easy in the way we sometimes see it, but you always find ways to express what you want to tell us… you have an amazing sense of humour… you are so natural at acting, performing and singing… you don’t care what others think, you always do what feels right for you… you are a sensitive soul who knows things on levels that many of us will probably never know… you are determined and stubborn, which I saw as gifts very early on in your life… and the simple things you want out of life never cease to amaze me… you are a big bundle of joy and happiness and it shows in everything you do and everywhere you go… you love discovering more about yourself through colours, your long hair and let’s not forget tattoos… who knows one day Mom might let you get a real one.
I could not be more proud of you… you have worked so hard all your life… and we have finally learned that it’s in allowing you to just be, that you are learning the most, changing and evolving as you need to… the journey continues and one day I look forward to looking back over the years and seeing even more of the amazingness of the real you that is yet to become!
Thank you for choosing me as your mother and taking me on this journey! xo
Blessings on your birthday and wishing you a year and lifetime filled with every one of your wishes and dreams to come true!